|Posted on December 13, 2011 at 8:50 PM|
Above, the Bohemian Gothic Tarot by Baba Studios
"In older decks of tarot cards, this card was called Fortitude, representing someone who could draw on mental resources to get through tough times."
Jane Stern, in her book,
Strength Year? WTH?
So this was my Strength year.
The challenges began in January at the turn of the New Year (2011) and kicked off HARD right after my April 9th birthday. When Mary Greer, author of Who Are You In The Tarot, was asked exactly when the year card's energy initiates -- at the turn of the new year, or on the actual birthday -- she said, "both." And I learned she was right.
I naively thought "Strength" year would mean everything would be strong and happy. Ha. Instead, what I got was a test of my strength.
My life this year has been surreal, with a cast of characters so bizarre and extreme, that if I ever told you what I experienced behind the scenes in 2011, you would be convinced I was making it up. Someday I will make a movie of this, and you'll swear I embellished it all for effect. I am looking forward to a very quiet, vanilla bean 2012 with friends who are true, honest, kind and supportive, who have strong mental health and no agenda....the normal things life should be made of. Beware the internet.
Consulting the iChing
Book of Changes
So tonight I asked the iChing why I attracted this unhealthy energy into my life. And I get Primary Hexagram 19, "Making Progress/Approach," and this changes into Secondary Hexagram 24, "Turning the Corner/The Turning Point." I'll quote from the book: "After a time of decay comes a turning point. The old is discarded and the new is introduced. Thus the movement is natural, arising spontaneously.
"Societies of people sharing the same views are formed. But since these groups come together in full public knowledge and are in harmony with the time, all selfish separatist tendencies are excluded, and no mistake is made. The idea of "return" is based on the course of nature. The movement is cyclic, and the course completes itself. Therefore it is not necessary to hasten anything unnecessarily. Everything comes of itself at the appointed time."
The changing second line in the hexagram gives me hope:
"Joint approach. Good fortune. Everything furthers." And for my actual change in 2012, it says, "Return. Success. Going out and coming in without error. Friends come without blame. To and fro goes the way. Return always calls for a decision and is an act of self-mastery. It is made easier if a man is in good company. If he can bring himself to put aside pride and follow the example of good men, good fortune results."
And therein lies my hope, as I close the veil on the experiences of 2011, without leaving the lesson behind. I open my heart to a warm and wonderful 2012, a clean slate, and unlimited potential with those I love most. I welcome true friends, positive community, and strong support with no agendas. Simplicity, grace, and honor.
Come to mama.